Christine, Wondering

Random Musings of a Human Becoming

Friday, January 19, 2007

Slight change of plans

I completely freaked out this week, and, as a result, had a long conversation with myself, which went something like this:

Q: Can I actually afford to live on my projected income for this year?
A: Maybe. Er, maybe not. I don't know.

Q: So, if it turns out that I can't, can I up my income?
A: Well . . . every spare second of the week is taken up with classes, work, travel, maintaining a relationship with Daniel, and sleep. So, no.

Q: So if it turns out I can't, what happens?
A: Uh, bad stuff?

Q: That's not really a tenable situation, is it. So how can I solve it?
A: I can only think of one way, which is switching to part time. But I don't want to do that.

Q: Why not?
A: Because I don't want to spend two more years studying before getting back into full-time work!

Q: Even if it means being miserable and broke and isolated and depressed and possibly losing a great relationship?
A: Well, no, but . . .

Q: And besides, don't you like studying? Weren't you saying how much you missed the student life and how much fun you're going to have as a student?
A: Well, yes, but . . .

Q: Then where are you going in such a tearing hurry?
A: Um


The upshot of which is that I'm switching to part-time internal study and doing the degree over two years instead of one. That means I'll work three days and one evening per week, rather than two days and three evenings, and I'll have three units' classes over three days instead of five units' classes over four. It'll still be hard, but nowhere near as hard as the full-time equivalent.

In other parts of my life, everything is well. Daniel and I continue to have a happy, healthy relationship (2 months yesterday!), family are fine, Jemima is well, all is good.


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