Feeling down

I'm sick again (S gave me tonsilitis, woot) and off school today, tomorrow and possibly Friday as well. Oh joy.

I'm finding some aspects of life really difficult at the moment. I can teach, where teaching equals standing in front of the class and engaging them in learning. But there's other aspects to teaching too . . . managing parents, managing other staff members, managing tricky bits of paper, and managing to remember to do a million different beaurocratic hoop-jumps every day.

Aspergers Christine doesn't deal so well with those things, and it's making me feel very stressed and negative and self-hating. I want to be good at it but my brain just doesn't seem to want to co-operate and I don't know how to train it to do these things better.

*bawls*